I Started YouTube

Still figuring it out, but showing up anyway.

Hey friends,

I started YouTube thinking I might abandon this space for good. But after three videos, I’ve realized something surprising: I still find it easier to write than to talk on camera.

Maybe once I figure out how to actually speak like a normal human in front of a camera, I’ll transition fully. But for now, I’m still here—checking in, documenting the journey, and making sure this place doesn’t gather dust.

Time’s flying. Another month slipped by—almost two, if I’m not careful.

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So, Why YouTube?

YouTube is one of those things I always thought about doing… but never imagined I’d actually start. And yet—here we are.

The real reason I never started earlier? I thought it was a platform from a different era. TikTok’s been dominating, attention spans are shrinking, and long-form videos felt like a thing of the past. Like—who’s watching a 30-minute YouTube video these days?

But then again, guess who pays for YouTube Premium? Me. So maybe there’s still a place for thoughtful content after all.

What pushed me into action wasn’t the platform itself—it was my belief in personal branding. That’s something I’ve always cared about. I’d already been dabbling with TikToks and Reels, just testing the waters and figuring out what felt natural.

And somehow, YouTube became the next logical step.

Not because it felt comfortable. But because no one knows me there.

Instagram and TikTok are full of people I’ve known for years—friends, classmates, old acquaintances. And posting there feels… a little too close. Too exposed. But YouTube? YouTube is new. It’s quiet. And starting somewhere where nobody knows you makes it easier to build confidence and figure out your voice.

So, for now—I talk on YouTube, and post little text-overlay clips on the other platforms. Baby steps.

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What’s Holding Me Back?

Right now, most of my social accounts are just hanging in the background.

Not gone—just paused.

The problem isn’t the algorithm. It’s me. Some days I have no content. Some days I have no motivation. And a lot of days, I convince myself to procrastinate. I'm still not used to recording when people are around. It’s weird. It feels like I need the whole house to be silent before I can hit record.

Also… I’m scared.
Not of the camera, but of what comes with it.

The vulnerability.
The risk of saying something that might be misunderstood.
The fact that video puts a face to every word.

Writing doesn’t do that. You can hide a little behind your words.
But video? That’s all you. Your voice, your body language, your energy. It’s raw.

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The Bigger Picture

A big part of this push into content was the idea that I’ve always wanted to start a social media marketing agency. But I had to ask myself—how can I help clients build their brand if I can’t even build my own?

So I became my first client.
My own test case.

This is my “proof of concept”—to show that it’s possible to build something from scratch, authentically, across multiple platforms, with nothing but consistency and curiosity.

It’s messy. It’s slow. And I haven’t figured it all out yet.
But I’m here. I started. And that has to count for something.

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Still Here

Anyway, dear reader—if you’ve made it this far, thank you.

I hope life’s been kind to you lately. I’m still figuring things out, one post, one video, one upload at a time.

If you've got something you're trying to start, just know you're not alone in the mess.

See you in the next one.
—Haron